Fuck. So like...I am awake and hating it. I suppose I should rather start getting used to being up early all the time.
Lets see..what to talk about.
Well. You may or may not know this, but I am going to be moving to L.A. this summer to go to school.
I feel pretty good about it. (Goddamn I am tired)
My biggest issues with this is
A. Being able to afford living out there
B. Being away from my family
B is waaaaay more of a concern than A.
I am so close to my family. I lived in Vegas for a while and hated it. I hated not being able to walk across the street and see what my sister and nephew are up to. I hated not being able to just go to lunch with my mother.
Most people tell me that it is time to move on and grow up.
What is childish about loving and adoring your family?! Who the fuck says shit like that???
I think once I am actually out there and working towards my goals and dreams that I will feel ok. I already have some good friends from Tulsa that will be living within 30 mins from me.
The whole friend thing isn't an issue for me.
Blah...I guess what I am trying to express is this..
moving to a big fuck-off city without my family is going to be a huge culture shock to me.
I come from a huge family.
Including half and step- I am one of 8 children.
Think about that.
That is a fucking litter! hahaha. You know how dogs are pack animals?
I guess you could say that about me. I am a pack animal! haha.
Well, I have no idea where I am going with this. (didn't get any sleep so now I am just rambling)